Empty

I am feeling so very unsettled at the moment and am not sure why. What has happened in the last few weeks to cause my recent mood swings. I have been telling everyone it is due to stress, maybe I am even menopausal, do I believe either of those excuses? Nope I don't. I don't know why I am so angry, so sad, so distant, so maloncoly lately. I do know that I am struggling at the moment with my single life, for the  first time in 19 years I am really struggling with being single. I have had a few D/s relationships and have got over them all fairly well. However at the moment I feel there is just so much missing, I miss the direction, I miss the completeness, I miss the sting of a flogger, I just miss it all. I don't miss the person or the abuse, the neglect. I now realise more than ever before I miss having a Dom in my life, I feel so empty, I feel like I am nothing, I feel like I am worthless. I am in such a turmoil right now. I am nothing.

On a lighter note, here are some more pics for your viewing pleasure 

 I bought some new toys, unfortunately my relationship ended before I could use them. Above is my stainless steel Anal Hook, below a Ball Chain Flogger. Both handcrafted by Taipan Flesh 'n Steel

I have been having trouble with my shoulder, so Master G kindly offered to put the tens machine on it for me. This pic shows him tormenting me with it (and my laughing hystrically (what it doesn't show is Taipan egging him on and Gypsy laughing while taking pics.

I am so grateful to have wonderful friends in my life.